Update 1: This is my first ever year as an adult. I turn 18 in early April and I am low key terrified. I've waited for years to become a legal adult and experience the freedom that comes with this new title. But, with this freedom come a shit load of responsibility. I am now solely responsible for myself and everything I do, my life, my future, my education, my living situations, my relationships etc. So this is a large thing that has been at the forefront of my mind so far this year and I am not looking forward to, but also am looking forward to confronting that fear of my impending adulthood. I have mixed feeling about aging.
Update 2: I decided to defer for a year from university. This was a decision I made for three reasons.
- I want to just experience life without structure. If that makes sense. I have been in school for essentially my whole life and I think it will be cool to be able to dictate the time I do everything (excluding work obviously) and be able to plan my life around when I want to do things. I'm not sure I explained this reason very well but anyway that's reason 1.
- I wanted to try and earn enough money to move out and support myself without having to reply on my parental or Centrelink. I know I can get money to support myself while living away from home and studying, but I wanted to try and do as much for myself as I can, by myself. My parents can't support me living away so I would be completely dependent on money from the government and I just would rather try to do it myself as best I can first. So far though, not so good. Not many shifts at work at the moment so I've begun looking at different options (options that don't relate to this reason for the decision currently being discussed).
- I want to be sure that what I'm going to school to study, is what I want to study. When you're in school you are constantly bombarded by speeches of "you need to make the right life choice right now". So as soon as you express your interest in a certain university course teachers and parents latch onto that and drill its magnificence into you whenever they can. It is because of this that I want a year just working and probably wasting a lot of time to really be sure that it is what I do want not what I've been told that I want.
Update 3: Friendships and other relationships have so far become very scarce in my life at the moment. At this time I am really trying to focus on myself. Doing various online courses such as my RSA, RSG and my food service 1. I'm looking for another job, I'm looking at other pathways of education and careers, I'm looking at places to live and I'm trying to improve on myself. But I do realize that now I am no longer in school and seeing these people everyday I do need to put in more effort in contacting them and hanging out than I previously had to.
And so, these are the three main things happening in my life at this time. The typical stuff for people my age to be going through I'd assume. But anyway this is my first post in 2016 and although I would have liked it to be more interesting this is all I've go right now. With my abundance of free time I'm hoping to get more into this blogging and online thing this year, even though I have said this many times.
