NEW IDENTITY?

I'm getting glasses in the next week or so and I'm excited to finally fix the problems with my eyes but there is one thing that concerns me, how will my glasses affect my identity?

I know it's sort of a ridiculous notion, letting something as simple and common as a pair of glasses define me, but what if it does? I consider myself an extrovert (mostly) so I wonder how glasses will make others see me. Will they see me as someone I'm not because of the stereotype of people that wear glasses being shy, quiet people or will they see me as a sort of know-it-all even? Its crazy right? To already be thinking so deeply about how I fit a stereotype of wearing something I don't even have yet. 

Lately I've been thinking that an identity is a funny thing. Identity is made out to be something that is given to us by others that defines us to the world, but lately I think it's something else. I think we can create our own identity. It is something we choose, its how we see ourselves not necessarily how other people see us. That is what I think worries me. When I wear my glasses will I let the identity others have made for me influence the identity I've made for myself? Or will I sort of merge them both together? Or will it not matter and I'll be able to just continue as always and not give this new exterior add on any recognition at all? Identity is a funny thing and I'm still young and still changing and my identity is still forming as I grow as a person and experience more and more. I suppose that's how I should see this, as me growing. But my concerns about this will still probably be buzzing around and making a mess in my head for a while or at least until I get my glasses. 

Identity huh? I guess I'll eventually figure it out. 

FINAL YEAR OF "CHILDHOOD"

This year is my final year of high school and adulthood is already rising its ugly head over the horizon and asking me, "So, what are you gonna do with your life?" That is the question isn't it. It's the same question I've been asked my whole life. What do I want to be when I grow up?

When I was in kindergarten to about grade three my answer was always "veterinarian". Then from grade four on to roughly grade six it was just "something to do with animals" nothing overly specific. But after that I started to consider other avenues. I found other things I was passionate about and could do relatively well, the main idea that I begun to entertain was writing. So then my answer to the dreaded question about my future 'dream career' was something like "novelist" or "journalist". But that wasn't the end of my search for a practical future goal, because as I grew older I discovered the internet. This endless platform came with countless job/career options such as YouTube, online blogs, news and other story publishing sites as well as online stores to produce and sell my own products. This new platform and its many options only increased my confusion. But the two main ideas that have been circling my mind for years have always been either writing or something along the lines of zoology.

This past few months have been full of pressure from the school and teachers about choosing apath for next year and all the years to follow and from my parents with the "I'll support whatever you want to do but..." statement. Once again I've zoned back in on creative writing, English literature and also on gender studies. But following my previous pattern that will all probably change in the next couple of months, and that will probably be the case for my whole life. I only hope that I don't completely screw up and can find something that I enjoy- or pays the rent- to do for the rest of my life. So if you have read this and have any helpful inputs about future career paths or have any tips for this stress and confusion relating to this topic please leave a comment.

THE SILVER BOUGH by LISA TUTTLE

Title: The Silver Bough
Author: Lisa Tuttle
Price: $3 - form small book store/stand in Cairns Central

This book is absolutely incredible. It had my complete attention from the very first page and I couldn't put it down until I'd finished it. The writing style is beautiful and engaging and the description is well done and creates a clear and whimsical mental image. The story line and the characters are magical and interesting and aren't like any other fantasy novel I've ever read. I highly recommend this book to everyone and I can't wait to read her other works and recommend them to everyone as well.